The New Normal

[Verse 1]
And everything was different then
After the hospital I told myself I had the chance to live again
I'm gonna change this shit
I'm gonna kill the part of my brain where the pain exists
You know that part of me that had me left for dead
On a hospital bed knowing the infection spread
Because of self-medication
It couldn't help me then
But the beginning of my story helps to tell its end
I couldn't figure how to start this
I hate that typical introductory rap song
Factory wrapped in its over-produced cartilage
I want that bone marrow, there's no buffer between us now
I've been heartsick
So consider this catharsis
I moved out of that apartment
But took its baggage with me, now something's damaged in me
And it's been spreading deeper, a sickness
Give the reaper a kiss and lick the litmus
The gatekeeper went missing, MIA on a Sunday
My demeanor is death
It's either that or forgiveness, don't forget this
The equilibrium switched, the new normal is hopeless
I've been swimming in it but no one noticed
So I don't need your prognosis

[Hook]
The equilibrium switched, the new normal is hopeless
I've been swimming in it, but no one noticed
So stop looking for signs and stop looking for motives
You stare at the stars, you're losing focus
The equilibrium switched, the new normal is hopeless
I've been swimming in it, but no one noticed
The new normal is hopeless
The new normal is hopeless

[Verse 2]
And everything was different then
The possibility of my life being taken but it didn't end
Seeing life through a different lens
I told myself that I would never lose my grip but then I slipped again
Looking at the stars from under the surface
Drowning out the noise of the world's circus
The paranoia's getting real
So don't you tell me how to fucking feel
People think I'm such a popular dude
Like, you toured the world making positive moves
You should be happy, have some confidence too
Keep trying to make a point that they're not gonna prove
And I feel overwhelming guilt from it
I know I should be happy and I know I should be proud
And I hate the fact that I feel nothing
And even if it's wrong, I'd do anything to feel something

[Bridge]
So I don't know if I'll make it the next forty odd minutes
But if I don't, fucking forget it
I'm feeling heavy as lead
There's poison in the water and a bullet in my head

[Hook]
The equilibrium switched, the new normal is hopeless
I've been swimming in it, but no one noticed
So stop looking for signs and stop looking for motives
You stare at the stars, you're losing focus
The equilibrium switched, the new normal is hopeless
I've been swimming in it, but no one noticed
The new normal is hopeless