Gethsemane (I Only Want to Say)

I only want to say
If there is a way
Take this cup away from me
For I don't want to taste its poison
Feel it burn me, I have changed
I'm not as sure as when we started

Then I was inspired
Now I'm sad and tired
Listen, surely I've exceeded expectations?
Tried for three years, seems like thirty
Could you ask as much from any other man?

But if I die
See the saga through and do the things you ask of me
Let them hate me, hit me, hurt me, nail me to their tree
I'd wanna know, I'd wanna know my God
Wanna know, I'd wanna know my God
Wanna see, I'd wanna see my God
I'd wanna see, I'd wanna see my God

Why I should die?
Would I be more noticed than I ever was before?
Would the things I've said and done matter any more?
I'd have to know, I'd have to know my Lord
Have to know, I'd have to know my Lord
Have to see, I'd have to see my Lord
Have to see, I'd have to see my Lord
If I die, what will be my reward?
If I die, what will be my reward?
Have to know, I'd have to know my Lord
Have to know, I'd have to know my Lord

Why should I die? Why should I die?
Can you show me now that I would not be killed in vain?
Show me just a little of your omnipresent brain
Show me there's a reason for your wanting me to die
You're far too keen on 'where' and 'how' and not so hot on 'why'
Alright, I'll die! I'll die!
Just watch me die!
See how I die!
I'l die!
Alright, I'll die!

Then I was inspired
Now, I'm sad and tired
After all I've tried for three years
Seems like ninety - why, then, am I
Scared to finish what I started?
What you started! - I didn't start it!

God, thy will is hard
But you hold every card
I will drink your cup of poison
Nail me to your cross and break me
Bleed me, beat me, kill me, take me now
Before I change my mind!