This jounals his journey of career, from needing to smoke and drink for confidence in performing to becoming addicted to prescription and other hard drugs, alongside selling, to getting locked up and forced into sobriety; from fun, to recognizing a problem, to hitting rock bottom in life.
[Bridge 1]
10 years plus to the beepers
Looking in the mirror like "me grown"
Liquor and the weed to get my freak on
Thinking I look G'd to my people
I'm out consumed, could be lethal
Courage built up like a peephole
Where I'm headed? That's something I'ma think on
But it's up in the air like a free throw
[Verse 1]
There's a reoccurring pattern in my life
I've been fucked off since a itty bitty size
Always feeling lost, you could see it in my eyes
Analyzing Bone Thugs cuz they kinda been like mine
Searching for some love, thinking I could gеt it high
And if you would like to drink, then I could steal us winе
I'm not a criminal, just wanna have a good time
And live up in the moment like the moment be the sky
Yet, how can it be when I'm feeling so shy?
And I ain't got game like Nintendo wasn't mine
Overthinking every little thought up in my mind
Now I got migraines like I'm slinging rice
But if I had a girl that could ride like a bike
And teach me how to kiss with my tongue between her thighs
I'd be hella scared, yo, I ain't even lying
So it's liquor and the weed before a nigga slide, yikes!
[Hook]
Head is up in the air like a free throw, up in the air like a free throw
Up in the air like a free throw, up in the air like a free throw, switch!
Up in the air like a free throw, up in the air like a free throw
Up in the air like a free throw, up in the air like a free throw, switch!
[Bridge 2]
20 years plus, bigger beepers
Looking in the mirror like "he swole"
Coke and the E to get my freak on
Thinking I look G'd to my people
I'm out consumed, kinda lethal
Courage built up like a steeple
Not knowing whose sheets I'ma sleep on
But it's up in the air like a free throw
[Verse 2]
Life seem fun but my brain been fried
And yeah, I got drip but my bank on dry
Label came with a deal? Yeah, I think I'll sign
And give away the rights to the music I write
Now I'm pissed off like the fault ain't mine
Now I'm selling drugs like this shit full time
The blame game strong when you out your mind
The world seem lame when you shout and cry
Now I get numb and go dumb when I'm live
Contacts I hide behind my eyes
Try to ride the party vibe til I die
But my body hate I for the drugs inside
Family and my friends look at me like "Is he fine?
Should we call a doctor to see if he alright?"
I'd be hella scared, yo, I ain't even lying
So it's coke and the E before a nigga slide, yikes!
[Hook]
Head is up in the air like a free throw, up in the air like a free throw
Up in the air like a free throw, up in the air like a free throw, switch!
Up in the air like a free throw, up in the air like a free throw
Up in the air like a free throw, up in the air like a free throw, switch!
[Bridge 3]
30 years plus, big beepers
Looking in the mirror like "he old"
Addicted to oxys now and the crystal
Don't give a fuck what I look like to my people
I'm out consumed, hella lethal
No need for courage, I'm asleep, yo
Walking dead to the feds, I don't see home
But it's up in the air like a free throw
[Verse 3]
Fuck myself, I'ma plug myself
Put needles in my veins just to drug myself
Oxy in my lungs but the med don't help
But I don't give a fuck cuz I love my hell
Try to numb and the goddamn guilt
My daughters look at me like I'm walking on stilts
But I don't feel no bigger than the mother stripper heels
Back when she was dancing to pay the fucking bills
Spread like brazy, no I ain't banging
Love got a swan for the game he gave me
Brain been changed, now life's been amazing
Now I'm not angry, now I got patience
Looking at these drug addicts blowing my mind
Cuz I see my past life on they eyes
I be hella scared, yo, I ain't even lying
So now I keep my head clear as a nigga slide, yikes!
[Hook]
Head is up in the air like a free throw, up in the air like a free throw
Up in the air like a free throw, up in the air like a free throw, switch!
Up in the air like a free throw, up in the air like a free throw
Up in the air like a free throw, up in the air like a free throw, switch!
Worht eerf a ekil ria eht ni pu, worht eerf a ekil ria eht ni pu
Worht eerf a ekil ria eht ni pu, worht eerf a ekil ria eht ni pu
Free Throw was written by Koshir.
Free Throw was produced by Smart Alec for Subliminal Beats LLC.
Koshir released Free Throw on Tue Feb 27 2024.