Forgive Me

[Verse 1]
I walk in and she's got a devilish grin
Like "Where the Hell have you been?
I've been waiting for an hour
Almost got ready to take my shower"
As I'm settlin' in
I'm thinking I said never again
The walk only took me ten
So I sat on her step
For fifty
Just thinking is she
Worth it?
I know my man don't deserve this
Can't believe I'd hurt him
I'm worthless
My thoughts are racing
Can't even sit, I'm pacing
I look over she's layin'
Naked
I can't take it
The words I'm looking for, I can't say it
So I lay down and begin hatin'
Myself
My health is depletin'
But no one can see it
My soul's freezin'
Who I am, I can't be him
Broke my rules, my own freedom
I need to leash it
And I see it
My indecent demons
Will make my best friend fleein'
By the next season, I need him
I need to beat it
But can't seem to leave it
It's like I'm fiendin'
It's like I need it
He can't read it
So if I can gain the courage to see him
And speak it
Then maybe we can continue bein'
Then maybe, just maybe, he'll understand, man
I just hope he can
Forgive me

[Verse 2]
She got him up all night, all he's singing is love songs
And I'm stuck thinking what I've done wrong
My frozen soul was unthawed
But now it's melting
Burning up with anger, Hell brings
Less pain then the way her cell rings
He's texting her
While I'm sexing her
If I tell him he'll kill the messenger
But it's deserved
Shouldn't have messed with her
But it's a curse
I can't deal with dinner, gotta have dessert
But rest assured
You can bet your ass there was a lesson learned
I'm blessed to hurt
Any fault was less than her
This mess hurts worse
Than anything, gotta let it burn
Hear my words
The pain in my brain is insane
Keep going down this lane, I'm in danger
I wish I could mame her
Or at least name her
So her boyfriend knows this dame's worth
But it ain't work
They're the same person
So there'd be no hurtin'
My words are worthless
Nothing is possible
I brought myself to this obstacle
I brought myself into this awful mood
Seems my brain is often doomed
Looking at the big picture, no longer lost in zoom
Wondering my house, I'm lost in the rooms
Just staring at the sky, man, I'm lost in the moon
Lost in the mood
I'm a fool, man
I just hope I can
Forgive me