For Whom Do the Flowers Bloom?

[Verse 1]
Recovering from years of abuse, confronting sensitive topics
Skeletons in my closet, things I still haven't processed
I never dealt with all my trauma, I just ran to narcotics
Cause when you're desperate to survive, you don't use any logic
I'm finally ready, the truth can be unraveled now
Of course it's heavy, I’m carrying a thousand pounds
I'm one of many, that's made it up to now somehow
Life is deadly, when there's no ups only downs

[Chorus]
I've always wondered, for whom do the flowers bloom?
God must have his favorites, he selects a chosen few
How did I get so unlucky, stuck with so much wounds?
Why should I wake up and wait for my impending doom?
I'm fighting back, I’m standing up for once, I’m building courage
Doing everything I can to be a better person
This ain't no external motivation, I’m determined
It's now or never, time to show the mirror I’m not a burden

[Verse 2]
Leave it in the past, I don't wanna be sad
Something’s gotta change, I don't wanna feel bad
I can’t help but miss all the things that I had
But if I keep reminiscing, I’ma die mad
Y'all can think I'm not all there but don't question my character
My guard isn't up no more, I’m breaking down my barriers
Putting up a front is easy, being you is scarier
Lying to yourself is easy, being true is scarier
I finally know what it means to be brave
I just hope that it isn't too little too late
I've been changing, I’m making the night turn to day
I've been thinking that everything gon' be okay
I've been thinking that life is some sort of a game
I mean look where I started and what I became
I was so disregarded, entangled in pain
When I tried to make progress, I’d end up the same
And I've been looking for answers way up in the galaxy
Maybe I’ll finally smile
Or maybe I'll realize that joy is only a fantasy
God I'm so sick of that feeling of agony
My life is full of way too many tragedies
Trying my best to come up with a strategy
Trying to find out a way to live happily, that's it

[Chorus]
I've always wondered, for whom do the flowers bloom?
God must have his favorites, he selects a chosen few
How did I get so unlucky, stuck with so much wounds?
Why should I wake up and wait for my impending doom?
I'm fighting back, I’m standing up for once, I’m building courage
Doing everything I can to be a better person
This ain't no external motivation, I’m determined
It's now or never, time to show the mirror I’m not a burden (Yeah)

[Verse 3]
Overcoming all my fears, I’ve been in chains for years
Now I'm finally seeing clear, I finally wiped my tears
It wasn't long ago when I just tried to disappear
I'm hanging onto hope, even if the end is near
I made peace with what I did back then, I’m done repenting
I can't change the past, my history has been cemented
This battle in my mind’s a paradox, It's never-ending
I pray that the flowers bloom for me, I pray I go to heaven

[Outro]
DempseyRollBoy
In a world of my own