A rather emotional song for Awk, in it he addresses three people that have had major (albeit sometimes negative) influences on his life in each verse – from the owner of his old record label, an ex girlfriend, and his father – in forgiveness for their slights.
[Verse 1]
I ain't gon' lie I owe a lot to you
Thought we was brothers, held the spot for ya
Man, I thought we'd fucking rule the world
Doing everything we could for your wife and your girl
I mean, you put me on the team
Gave me the inspiration and a dream
That every time they'd go and mention us it's
"greatest there ever was" in the suffix
Sucks, somehow it seems you lost touch
Every time you made a change you actin' like it's for us
More artists more content more donations
Damn, when did money become motivation?
I still remember everything you said that day
And how you treated me when I chose to walk away
Life gets hard, trust me I can see that now
But I'm still here hoping that this finds you well
[Hook]
I'm hoping that this finds you well
I'm really hoping that this finds you well
[Verse 2]
Naw, it was nothing like love, but
That doesn't mean that it wasn't enough
To have me twisted up, thinking that's what happy was
Maybe too presumptuous thinking that you cared for us
And then the moment that I went and turned my back
I catch you on your back, with the homie in his flat, fuck
He was my brother, thought you were my girl
In just a matter of minutes you can lose your whole world
Just a kid, heartbroken, without a single friend
Screaming that I'd never love again
Saw you two years later, I finally did forget
And then you acted like we'd never even met, damn
That had me messed up for too long
Been 10 years and it's still here in this song
Writing a story that I never thought I'd tell
Hell, I hope this finds you well I really do girl
[Hook]
In order for us to explore these beautiful blank pages
We must first turn the pages that we've already written
And I know it's hard to let go of the pain
And troubles of the past but I'm here for you
We can do it together
[Verse 3]
I am nothing without honesty
In truth, I hated you for how she's blamed wrongfully
Never mind the fact you never cared
But to act like it's her choice that you was never there
Then to speak dirty on the only one who loved us
And to take advantage of her and beat up my little brother
When you'd go, I'd pray to god that you were gone for good
Lost faith, cause despite my prayers, knew you never would
I used to dream about killing you
Just a boy, wishing such an ill-will on you
Can you imagine how you have to treat your son
To have him wishing on a star for a bullet and a gun?
Pain begets pain, but forgiving you is beautiful
God damn man, I pity you
And even though this one is hard as hell
Honestly, I hope this finds you well I really do
[Hook]