February 28, 2000

February 28 the year is 2000
Monday getting ready for school; I grab my things
But I can’t forget my Eastbay magazine; where me and my homies would do our shoe browsing
Looking at kicks that we hadn’t seen
I thought my mom was sleep so I went to school frowning
But something was off and I couldn’t shake it
I told her bye before I left and she didn’t say it
I didn’t go in her room in case she’s laying naked
The whole bus ride to school my heart was aching
Maybe I shoulda stayed home
As soon as I got to school I used the pay phone
The line was busy
Now I’m feeling sick to my stomach and getting dizzy
Cuz in these days, it would only be busy if she was on a 3way
But I know she doesn’t know how, plus she was sleep when I left
I couldn’t concentrate, all I could think of was of death as I felt my heart beat out my chest
And told my friend Larry, "I think somethings wrong" and "I can’t reach my mom on the phone"
And as the day went on, I felt like a ticking bomb
In the middle of class I’m called on the intercom
And told me come to the office
I had a phone call, it was my aunt, and she was talking
Asking me about my mom and if she was home
Her van was in the driveway, but seemed she was gone
I said she was when I left; at this point I’m just a mess
I told her come and get me; I have the key to the house and I wanna see what this is about
The drive home was like a blur but I’m hoping the lord
Will have my mom alive when its time to open the door
We pull up, and my mind’s racing off track
We enter the house and I point straight to the back
To where my mom’s room is; and Claire enters slow
Then comes out crying; please tell me it isn’t so
I walked in, with no lies spoken
My momma was laying dead with both eyes open
And that’s the moment that my life changed
And the, source of my pain
And that’s the moment that my life changed
And the, source of my pain