Family Matters

Just thought I would try it
See if I liked it
I never thought my life would have crumbled because of my vices
But I don't know what else could bring me this type of excitement
And I still find a way to afford it
Fuck what the price is
Been in a crisis
Even when I'm sober I look lifeless
And I ain't talking royalty when I mention my highness
I only feel this good when I'm rolling
Just like the dices
Upping my chance to losing my life
Ignore your advices
It's my decision to slice this up and take it in vain
Better yet through the nose is a quicker road to the brain
I be better known for cocaine sniffing to cope with the pain
And a mother who taught her three kids to never do the same
I'm lucky enough they were smart enough to make their own decisions
But now they're growing up without me
I hope one day I'm forgiven
But little do I know is I'm smoking to fight my demons
My son will find me dead in my bed for the same reasons

[Interlude]
"Hey Mom, back."
"Mom?"
"Hello?"
"Damn, what the fuck is that smell?"
"Hello?"
"Ma, you sleep?"
"Ma?"
"Oh my god, oh my god. Ma, no!"
"God, no, no"
[Interlude end]

[Chorus]
My father told whatever you do just keep it real
So that's what imma do
Someones dealing with the pressure
I just don't know how to feel
And that's what a momma do
Sobbing through shit
And I still don't know exactly how to deal
So I sipped the liquor heavy
I'm a nuisance
Running through my veins
I've been addicted to the music
So I gotta treat it like its dope I've been using
Whatever you do just keep it real
So that's what imma do
So much dealing with the pressure
I just don't know how to feel
And that's what a momma do
Sobbing through shit
And I still don't know exactly how to deal
So I sipped the liquor heavy
I'm a nuisance
Running through my veins
I've been addicted to the music
So I gotta treat it like its dope I've been using
[Chorus]

Just thought I would take a sip to relax
Never realizing the more that I drink
It comes with a tax
Learn from being a sailor
You gotta sip till it's empty
The more I knock em back
The more my family resents me
Now I'm starting to pass out more at family gatherings
Jack poured in a cup
Getting smacked
Forming a pattern
I transform into a monster when Hardy swallows the vodka
Fast on acting out
Treat the bottle like its and oscar
I'll take the fast route to my body giving and failing
My liver was the victim
The liquor was the assailant
Finally starting to see all the problems that is unveiling
This living keeps me afloat
But I'm sinking instead of sailing
And every day is harder to say what you like about me
My family will go on and keep living their life without me
How was I supposed to know I would die from being a drunk
And the nephew I paid the least attention to would write about me

[Chorus]
My father told whatever you do just keep it real
So that's what imma do
Someones dealing with the pressure
I just don't know how to feel
And that's what a momma do
Sobbing through shit
And I still don't know exactly how to deal
So I sipped the liquor heavy
I'm a nuisance
Running through my veins
I've been addicted to the music
So I gotta treat it like its dope I've been using
Whatever you do just keep it real
So that's what imma do
Someones dealing with the pressure
I just don't know how to feel
And that's what a momma do
Sobbing through shit
And I still don't know exactly how to deal
So I sipped the liquor heavy
I'm a nuisance
Running through my veins
I've been addicted to the music
So I gotta treat it like its dope I've been using
[Chorus]

So I gotta treat it likes it's dope I've been using