Billie Eilish
Billie Eilish
Billie Eilish
Billie Eilish
Billie Eilish
Billie Eilish
Billie Eilish
Billie Eilish
Billie Eilish
Billie Eilish
Billie Eilish
Billie Eilish
Billie Eilish
Billie Eilish
Billie Eilish
Billie Eilish
Billie Eilish
“everything i wanted” sees Billie recalling a nightmare she experienced where she committed suicide and saw all her friends and fans turn their backs on her. The lyrics showcase Billie’s strong relationship with her brother FINNEAS, as he’s the one she goes to for support when dealing with these typ...
[Verse 1]
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
Not what you'd think
And if I'm bein' honest
It might've been a nightmare
To anyone who might care
Thought I could fly (Fly)
So I stepped off the Golden, mm
Nobody cried (Cried, cried, cried, cried)
Nobody even noticed
I saw them standing right there
Kinda thought they might care (Might care, might care)
[Pre-Chorus]
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up, I see
You with me
[Chorus]
And you say, "As long as I'm here, no one can hurt you
Don't wanna lie here, but you can learn to
If I could change the way that you see yourself
You wouldn't wonder why you hear
'They don't deserve you'"
[Verse 2]
I tried to scream
But my head was underwater
They called me weak
Like I'm not just somebody's daughter
Coulda been a nightmare
But it felt like they were right there
And it feels like yesterday was a year ago
But I don't wanna let anybody know
'Cause everybody wants something from me now
And I don't wanna let 'em down
[Pre-Chorus]
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up, I see
You with me
[Chorus]
And you say, "As long as I'm here, no one can hurt you
Don't wanna lie here, but you can learn to
If I could change the way that you see yourself
You wouldn't wonder why you hear
'They don't deserve you'"
[Outro]
If I knew it all then, would I do it again?
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead?
If I knew it all then, would I do it again?
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead?
everything i wanted was written by Billie Eilish & FINNEAS.
everything i wanted was produced by FINNEAS.
Billie Eilish released everything i wanted on Wed Nov 13 2019.
Billie teased the song title in a November 2019 Instagram live where she revealed the title of the song and the release date. Later, Billie posted a snippet of the end of the track on her Instagram page.
English artist Jason Anderson was approached by Eilish to paint the track’s cover artwork. More information about the artwork and images such as a rough draft of the piece can be viewed in the artwork annotation.
Pretty much that whole song is about me and Finneas' relationship as siblings. We started writing it because I literally had a dream that I killed myself and nobody cared and all of my best friends and people that I worked with basically came out in public and said, like, “Oh, we never liked her.” I...
Billie first revealed a snippet of an instrumental portion of the song in a September 2018 Instagram story:
During the week ending November 23, 2019, “everything i wanted” debuted at #74 on the Hot 100. During the week ending November 30, the song peaked at #8. The song is Eilish’s second to chart in the top 10 of the Hot 100.
In a December 2019 interview with Variety, Billie explained:
We wrote the first verse of that song [“everything i wanted”] a year ago. I think it was either August or September of 2018….Two weeks ago, I wanna say, we had one day and it had to be done. Finneas was like, “We have to be done by tomorr...
In an interview for Variety’s 2020 Hitmakers Impact List, Finneas stated:
I know people have made quite a few TikToks with the second verse but I think the initial exposure we owe largely to our already loyal audience — Billie’s, specifically. I can’t speak to why other people like it, but I think...
Yes, the album won for “Record of the Year” at The 63rd Annual Grammy Awards:
Congratulations @billieeilish! ✨ She won the Grammy award for Record of the Year for "Everything I Wanted" at the 2021 #GRAMMYs. 🏆— billboard (@billboard) March 15, 2021
Billie confirmed in an interview with Open House party that “Everything I Wanted” had previously been titled “Nightmare.”
Billie Eilish has revealed her past struggles with suicidal ideation and depression. Her co-writer, producer and brother, Finneas O'Connell, initially refused to help Billie write this song:
It was a period where I was really worried about my sister, and I felt like an enabler in helping her write...
We wrote the first verse of this song in Fall 2018, we wrote the chorus in April of 2019 and then, we wrote the rest of the song in September of 2019 and we recorded it in November of 2019 — over some very different periods of my life and states of mind, I feel like 2018 and 2019 was a blur. I didn’...