“everything at once” is the second song on the album “Blue Hour” and the sixth single released. Confirmed by Mothica in the description of her music video on YouTube the song is about dealing with depression.
Mothica released the lyric video on June 12th 2020 followed by a music video on July 20th...
[Chorus]
I can't cry, I'm too anxious
Restless mind, I can't shake this
Said I'm fine but we both know I'm faking
I'm not feeling numb, I'm just feeling everything at once
[Verse 1]
Hate when you ask how I'm doing
I know that you're just assuming
I'm better now, not bleeding out
Get outta bed on a good day
Lately that's all I can do, hey
I go through hell to hide myself
[Pre-Chorus]
I think about new ways to hurt me
But don't want my mother to see
It's not that I feel undeserving
Just blame it on the chemistry
That's why
[Chorus]
I can't cry, I'm too anxious
Restless mind, I can't shake this
Said I'm fine but we both know I'm faking
I'm not feeling numb, I'm just feeling everything at once
[Refrain]
Oh, oh, I'm just feeling everything at once
Oh, oh, I'm just feeling everything
[Verse 2]
Whatever I do I can't slow down
Please don't leave me alone now
'Cause when I stop, my demons talk
I'm coming off apathetic
I play it off like it's an aesthetic
Clearly I care too much, but I'm fooling everyone
[Pre-Chorus]
I think about new ways to hurt me
But don't want my mother to see
It's not that I feel undeserving
Just blame it on the chemistry
That's why
[Chorus]
I can't cry, I'm too anxious
Restless mind, I can't shake this
Said I'm fine but we both know I'm faking
I'm not feeling numb, I'm just feeling everything at once
[Refrain]
Oh, oh, I'm just feeling everything at once
Oh, oh, I'm just feeling everything at once
Oh, oh, I'm just feeling everything at once
Oh, oh, I'm just feeling everything at once
everything at once was produced by Mike MacAllister & MOTHICA.
MOTHICA released everything at once on Fri Jun 12 2020.