Erosion

And I’ve been awake for the longest time
Losing my bets with the walls
I trusted you with what was on my mind
All I could hope was for you to move along and see that
I’ve been afraid for the longest time
That I’d put a hole in your heart
And I’ve run away from it all my life
So you’d never know that I can’t be what you want

I know you lie to me until I turn my back
I should have seen the signs, fine print between the lines
In your burning photos, I saw my face staring back
Cut deep like severed ties
Harsh winds and colored skies turning grey
Well
Until backup arrives
I’ve got no place to hidе, or to stay

If you mean it I’ll
Grab my keys and go
You don’t have to lеt me know how you feel
You didn’t make me out of stone
But I’d rather just erode
Than be a burden to you

‘Cause I thought that you
Said that you’d be proud
I was scared to live out loud, but I did
Because you promised solid ground
But you crumbled at the sound
And let me suffer alone

Leave your bottles by the phone
‘Cause if I can’t feel clean at home
I can love me on my own
Terms

And I’ve stayed away for the longest time
Getting to know who I’ve been all along
And I’ve learned that home is a flawed design
If I couldn’t say it’s where I know I belong, ‘cause when I
Came crawling back after all this time
I knew that I’d need to claw at your door
You wish that I’d never been born sometimes
I wish that you weren’t afraid to call me yours

I know you’re there for me until I turn my back
I should have seen the signs, fine print between the lines
I’ll be here waiting ‘til you’re ready to attack
Cut deep like severed ties, dark clouds along horizons of grey
Well
No one could hear me cry
I told the empty sky I’m afraid

If you mean it I’ll
Grab my keys and go
You don’t have to tell me no anymore
You didn’t make me out of stone
But I’d rather just erode
Than be a burden to you

‘Cause I thought that you
Said that you’d be proud
I was scared to live out loud, but I did
Because you promised solid ground
But you crumbled at the sound
And let me suffer alone

Leave your bottles by the phone
‘Cause if I can’t feel clean at home
I will love me on my own
Terms

You can take away my pride
I don’t need you by my side
I will live my life on my
Terms