Elephant

Cortez:

Walk around with this tusk in my stomach
Old tree bark this storm gon make me plummet
Got this parasite gnawing at my shins like sketchy pop shuv it
Make these people scramble for them purses they clutching
Any value i hold to them is a bunch extra nothing
Hold onto that social status like handy crutches
When it’s them at the bottom they gon beg for some extra somethings
Bitch i’m used to scrapping up change hoping i’m getting lucky
You ain’t never battle
Listen to them shackles rattle
Navigating oceans
On your boat no paddle
Sitting on the edge
Hoping you gon float
Or they find you dead
Bitch i feel like climbing up the walls
Bouncing up and down
Needing somebody to talk
But nobody wants to stick around
I’m that shadow in the corner of your room
An elephants carcass, headstone unmarked
Just another tomb
From the side where a flower never blooms
Just a crack in the cement under the pressure of your boots

Digital aids:

How many damn times can i abandon myself?
I toggle every fucking switch until i find me some health
And even then, i don't if i should find me some help
Cuz i might boom for a day but I'll recess till snow melts
So now im gambling that summertime comes and i climb outta this shell
I may not make it to this wintertime, ill fail to ring bells
I may be living somewhere else, family relationships fail
I'm so close to being homeless but its better than hell
Like how could i miss being poor?
Like how could i miss selling snow?
How could a bitch like this be so god damn miserable
I got a big ass house but it ain't feeling like home
Cuz i ain't live with none my spouses, the few things that make me whole
Now im stuck in my room, and I can't tell if its cold
But if i go out now i feel ill hit new low
I can't take it no more i gotta find a new hole
Rock bottoms better than being held down to 0's

Nickg:

My dreams are puddles of the past contorted
Friends have turned to memories
Lethargy from enchanted flora
Thoughts obsessive
I’m exhausted tryna not get lost up in em
I know I’m the answer to my questions
And my path is with direction
it is not a surprise
Take in the sun as it fall and it rise
The blood on my palms, will it dry?
Was supposed to be learning and growing
I was out burning that dope up
Cutting up pills on my phone and sipping
Hope nobody notice
Changing through the seasons
I create my fucking meaning
There was never a beginning or end
We just currents in forever burning rivers of sin and glory
Stumble out the liqour store
Nick, tell me a different story
Sobered up and
Realized what is and what isn’t important
I was always here
Never born and I’ll never die hoe
Flowers bloom and rot like the animals
No survival
Let the fauna eat my body
Energy recycled
Golden sun rays gleaming
Nurturing the pine cones
Amalgamation of colours
Dilapidated in structure
I’m on the way w my brothers
And you can count on it
Shrooms inducing states of yugen
Rotten as the culture made me
Body is the locusts haven
I won’t let the vultures take me