Eighteen

[Verse 1]
Which one did you fuck harder
My best friend or my self-esteem?
Remember when you got drunk
And said you were the only one dumb enough to love me?
I don't want to live just following your script
The actress is too young and the director is a narcissist

[Chorus]
This isn't normal, this isn't okay
But I didn't know any better so I thought it would be better to stay
Almost beautiful, the things that you taught me
I think I really loved you
I think you really loved that I was
Eighteen

[Verse 2]
You bought me beer because you were too old to go to prom with me
I threw up in the bathroom, my friends made memories
And yeah you looked really cool
To a girl still in high school
'Cause you don't have to chase anything that you can fool

[Chorus]
This isn't normal, this isn't okay
But I didn't know any better so I thought it would be better to stay
Almost beautiful, the things that you taught me
I think I really loved you
I think you really loved that I was
Eighteen, oh

[Bridge]
I see you out with younger versions of me
While I'm trying to find who I used to be
I'm terrified that you and I will always be
Chasing eighteen

[Chorus]
This isn't normal, this isn't okay
But I didn't know any better so I thought it'd be better to stay
Almost beautiful, the things that you taught me
I think I really loved you
I think you really loved that I was
Eighteen, oh