Early Grave

[Verse 1: Stray]
Woke up feeling fucked up, got knots in my chest and burst wounds in my stomach
Feeling sick like I spent all night drinkin'
But I ain't had a sip in over a week yet my sanity feels like it's leakin' (Like it's leakin')
All over the bedsheets, all over my eyes tryin’ to think of all the reasons why that I shouldn't cry
Be a man, they say (Nah), we don't hurt it that way (Nah)
We just suffer in silence 'til we blow out our fuckin' brains (Bow)
Is that okay? I didn't think it, now I'm gaggin' dry even where my sink is
Funds runnin' low and there's not much left here for eatin'
These hunger pains growing and ain't showing signs of ever receding
The bills keep comin' and they pilin' up, I swear to God I'm at my breaking point, enough is enough
My girl telling me to leave, you're just stuck in a rut
It's hard to see the bright side, wishing my eyes stay shut

[Chorus: Stray]
I woke up stressed today the same as yesterday and the day before
I can't seem to get your greatness, anxiety's becoming the norm
So back and forth I pace, god I hate this place
That's where I've tried to change all my ways
I think it's safe to say if I don't leave this cage
I'm just digging myself a long way to an early grave (A long way to an early grave)

[Verse 2: Stray]
Most days I don't even open the blinds
Why worry about the outside when they never in mind?
I shot subliminals' like Kubrick for not tintin' my lights
So, why not try a different app? Sit down and let's die
Seen family turned to foes in the blink of an eye
Watched homies choose an addict over being, then fry
I steer my heart into her eyes and had to stomach of lyin'
About my quality of life and how I'm tired of trying
I'm just so tired of fighting and all these thoughts become frightening
Need a shock to the dome like nineteen thirties or lightning
Feel I'm digging my plot, my cold bones in a box
I'm buried deep beneath the soil where I once kicked rocks
Fuck! I'll admit I'm not enjoying this fall
The world feels like a predator and I'm caught in the claws

[Chorus: Stray]
I woke up stressed today the same as yesterday and the day before
I can't seem to get your greatness, anxiety's becoming the norm
So back and forth I pace, god I hate this place
That's where I've tried to change all my ways
I think it's safe to say if I don't leave this cage
I'm just digging myself a long way to an early grave (A long way to an early grave)