Drowning

[Verse 1: Levi Hinson]
I live in fear of what I don't know
And when no one's around I'm afraid of being solo
My friends don't understand sarcasm's a mask for the feelings I don't wanna say I have
And every time we talk I just have to make a joke
Distance is comfort, and that's just how I cope
I'd rather be up in my room making all this music but this writer's block is killing me
Feel like I can not improve
Wanna be the best that I can be
But all my work is effortless
It's all up in my head, I can dream though
Never less, I'm heaven-sent but I just need some guidance
Trying to write rhymes but all I hear is silence
And I don't wanna be known for having no work ethic
Wanna paint a picture for y'all
But the words never come into my mind
And when they do, they're never that encouraging
I'm trying harder to write rhymes that don't cut ties
I saw my mom cry whenever she heard Winter
I never realized how deep those words hit her
She asked if she was doing her job
I said "Mom, it was just a spur of the moment comment"
And she looked at me said
"That doesn't change the words you just recorded
And put out on the internet due to all your boredom"
I get it now
So I just wanna clarify the comments that I made
I have a love and family and they always support me
And sometimes we fight, but that isn't important
I love them all to death and I really do regret putting them in a negative in some of my recordings
I'm just a young kid with a big dream
I mess up a lot but I'm doing some big things
And no matter the obstacles
I know that God sees what I'm doing and He's blessing me with these words that I sing, huh

[Verse 2: Kevin Hackett]
Like Adrian, I gotta let this stress out
Lot of things on my mind
I can barely rest now
Nobody wants to talk
Don't get as many texts now
All my friends at my school think of me as less
How did this all happen?
They all saw me differently when I started rapping
Talked behind my back and laugh at every track
And in this race I ran
I chose the wrong path and I hate it
This laziness consumes me
Usually I'm a fool, see I never work hard
And it's abused me
To the point of insanity asking God to heal me
I don't care if it's gradually
Do it someday, let me know if it's happening
Sin is a drug and I know I'm relapsing
Tried walking on water, I'm in the surface gasping
God just take my life again without me even asking
Got some other things on my brain
Lately I've dropping in most of my grades
My internal battery died
Can't get a single A
And on top of that, I can't get a single date
Cause I'm drowning
Nothing but pressure coming around me
I don't have a rap voice, I know how I'm sounding
It's the best I can do after three years and counting
Still got fans and all those who doubt me
But all in all, God's got my back
The water I was drowning in I now walk on that
There's moments when I want to pause, relax
But faith without works is nothing but crap
We're just young kids with big dreams
We mess up a lot but we're doing some big things
Life is not always as bad as it seems
All I know is that it's better when you live it with a King
Yeah