Don’t Take It Personally

Both these hearts are fading
A cardiac arrest is waiting
No, I'm not much for painting
But there's no more time for negotiating
Each vessel's blood's cascading
Ignore the piles of pencil shavings
I can't quite get the shading
Perhaps a drink or ten will save me

I'm so tired of feeling this
I'm so tired of what's drawn in my head
So I'll take these hallucinogens
Just to forget about when she said

"You can surrender your heart, but it won't be enough
Don't take it personally, I'm afraid of love"

A state of indеcision
Am I the culprit or the victim?
Now, all the lovе I've given
Is flowing through this blackened ink
A mass of small incisions
On a canvas not built for precision
If the drugs aren't in my system
Then what the hell has blurred my vision?

I'm not sure if it's permanent
But if it is then I might as well be dead
I don't want to get hurt again
But I remember the time she said

"You can surrender your heart, but it won't be enough
Don't take it personally, I'm afraid of love
So, just keep playing your part and I'll keep calling your bluff
But don't take it personally when push comes to shove"

White as snow, my wrist and my heart
Where you kissed, pulled apart
Till it burns like charcoal
It's so cold
And so, I just pray for some warmth
In this stick-and-poke

So, if to render my art, I need to own the right stuff
Perhaps what's burdened me won't quite be enough
So, I'll keep sketching my songs
And keep on tuning my brush
Until time has worthened me deserving of love

You can surrender your heart, but it won't be enough
Don't take it personally, I'm afraid of love
So, just keep playing your part and I'll keep calling your bluff
But don't take it personally when push comes to shove