Dismal

Three days and four nights awake
I don't know how much more I can take
As I lay astray, inside my head
Waiting for my last breath
I hope you know, I’m miserable
I’ve never felt so cold
It’s like breathing knives
It’s just like swallowing nails

Breathing knives
Swallowing nails

Once again in love with the feeling of being numb
Everything is fucked up
Can’t overcome the cravings for the poison
Now matter how much, there is never enough
I can’t overcome cravings for the poison
No matter how much, there is never enough

Four days and five nights awake
I can't keep my thoughts straight
Can't measure the pressure, about to break
Take more, what difference does it make?
Need an escape, take me away
I love the pain coursing through my veins
Don’t hesitate, the longer you wait
The more time it takes to forget everything

Brain dead
Wasted
Dismal
Lifeless

This is not who I am
This is not who I want to be

When I look in my eyes, I see
Nothing looking back at me
All this time, how did I not see?
I manifested my misery

All I can do is rebuild the foundation
Abandoning my life is my only salvation
All I can do is rebuild the foundation
Abandoning my life is my only salvation
Fuck

Brain dead
Wasted
Dismal
Lifeless