Disconnected

He said “i love the way you’re disconnected
I could tell you’re broken by the way our lips connected”
I told him “i could tell you’re misdirected
By the way you disrespected me
You focus your attention on all this tension
Always tensing, flexing
Never learn your lesson
Plus, our pain presented in different methods
That doesn’t lessen the fact that we were still reflections
I can only promise you a message
I’ve been channeling your higher self and showering you in blessings
But your games are getting testing
Had an opportunity, but you went ahead and messed it
And truthfully i’ve come to expect it
You turned me into you, too numb to be effected
So i pretend i’m cool calm centered and collected, connected, perfected
Take god’s medicine and inject it
But you seem to like the poison
So your veins they reject it
You seem to like the poison
So your veins they reject it”

I get high, get high, get high
Off what i, what i, what i
Cannot ever seem to fix
I love the way you’re broken
I love the way you’re broken

Verse
I love the way you shut me out
I can tell you numbed your pain by the weight you carry round
Night and day and by the way
I can hear those voices you’ve got running round
Asking me to come around just to hunt and shoot me down
Misleading me with missing pieces
Like “baby could you please just shield me from the weather?”
So you skinned me, and wore me like leather
So i could hold you all together
I can only promise you what’s relevant
But we couldn’t mix, two different elements, experiment for the hell of it
And i expected it
The last time you called, i should have just rejected it
Still tried to make you trust again
But I answer and you’re like … “baby i’m numb again, baby i’m numb again”

So i fumble for my phone and let you get it off your chest
And now you’re mourning, “I’m sorry gorgeous
It's not you, it's more just i’m falling, could you catch me?
Unlatch me from my own chains?
I mean, i’ve got the key
It's only me stopping me, but i like to see you’re helping me
And telling me, you’re loving me, is kinda motherly
And mama wasn’t overly affectionate
So i’ll take what i can get”

I get high, get high, get high
Off what i, what i, what i
Cannot ever seem to fix
I love the way you’re broken
I love the way you’re broken

I get high, get high, get high
Off what i, what i, what i
Cannot ever seem to fix
I love the way you’re broken
I love the way you’re broken

I tackle it with grace, trace the scars through your past hurt
Turn it into artwork, make the broken parts work
But i put your heart first, so your mark hurt
Turned heartless, i’m floating
In rivers of your blood
Drowning in your wounds
I lost myself cause i was selfless
And you
You’re selfish