Disaster

[Verse 1]
I read what's creased around my eyes
I look older than I did last night
I've been giving into my lesser side
Stockpiling all of my pride
I've been calling home less on the weekends
And making mama cry

[Pre-Chorus]
Hiding anger underneath my skin
I'm picking my nails down unto the quick
Oh, honestly my memory's
A blessing in disguise
If I remembered everything
I'd make a vodka cyanide

[Chorus]
Apologies never matter
Late in the morning after
Take me away from my own head
Baby, I'm a walking disaster
Pick up all the shame I can gather
Throw it over the rafters
Take my fingers and stain them all red
Baby, I'm a walking disaster

[Verse 2]
So painfully unself-aware
Thinking I can solve my problems if I dye my hair
I shout my ailments to the end of a small suburban town
I get what I want, choking on the silver in my mouth

[Chorus]
Apologies never matter
Late in the morning after
Take me away from my own head
Baby, I'm a walking disaster
Pick up all the shame I can gather
Throw it over the rafters
Take my fingers and stain them all red
Baby, I'm a walking disaster