Disambiguation

I am so much older now, there’s still things I can’t comprehend
What was it about ‘no’ that you didn’t understand?
Why couldn’t you see in my eyes I didn’t want to follow
Your devilish demands with my adolescent hands?

I don’t need your love anymore
I won’t be mad, I won’t be sad anymore
But I’ll be glad, for all of the things that you have given me
In this ongoing deranged mind game, I am my own referee
(I am my own referee)
(I am my own referee)

Although you’ve hurt me, you have hurt me pretty bad
For just one day, I’d like to keep that in the past
You were my best friеnd, my only best friend
And someday I’d likе to see you again

I’m always asked, how I survived
How I revived the happiness and empathy within me
Well, I survived because, the fire inside me burned
Much brighter than the fire around me