Digging

*ay* *ay* *ay*

Godforsaken place where I hear only "what a waste?"
Among the serpents and I feel bleak and desolate
The world around me wants me to be a gray mass to the grave
It indicates that it wants to enslave you every fucking day
The devil breaks the thorny cage inside my brain
And I feel it dissolving, my mind is slippin' away
And I tripping again to drown out the this pain
Maybe a problem in my head and it's only my blame
Believing in a lie will not make you wise
For knowledges your soul will be sacrificed

I ask myself "why?"
Why do I dig myself every night

Thick fog, streets choke, I smoke
Your worth means nothing to ground
Tear your throat, scream until you croak
But what's the point if you're already drowning
You can run away from everyone but you can't hide from yourself
Depressed demons can be your friends
It's so dangerous but sometimes I can't refuse them *ay*
They talk to me every night
And I dig myself to find the entrance to the closed astral
I don't wanna try to resist, I feel numb
Later I wake up from the cry "just try not to die!"