Depression

Music I'm startin' to lose interest
Lost my job last week due to some bitch shit
Discrimination
Shorty called me a fucking idiot
I never listen to others I just think who I think I am
What a coincidence
My mother said the same
But at this moment I ain't willing to change
If you haven't noticed I'm going thru thangs
Withdrawals and shakes
Haven't gobbled me a pill up in weeks feel like a dead man
Just moved out my parents don't see I'm not a baby
Really Been on my on mentally since I was 8 b
My love was headed out to job Corp
Shit ain't the same see
In order to better
The separations the greatest
Working in this retail store stealing' and bakin'
Even when I dress fly in my mind a nigga fakin'
And the edge of no bread was a flop
I had to step up
Under pressure to do better
But how a niggas messed up

(Jodi DaReal)
Chillin' in the dark room twilight
I really don't believe in my life
But I keep goin'
I keep goin'
And i go no way
Fghting to recover this
Simple things i can't regret
I keep goin'
I keep goin'

While recording my second coming
My uncle got sick from all that cancerous shit
It had me buggin'
Mixing up my weed with some uncontrollable substance
Distancing my self from my family friends and others
But when my uncle needed a hand I'd lend it
Shortys out in school
And I'm Mackin women pretendin'
Like I was in the single life
But really I just wanted love at night
Drugged up looking for a hug let me fuck em right
Went home and realized I'm slipping and I'm Fallin
There's no reason that I'm mixing this syrup with alcohol
Working my shift one morning and then I got the call
Cancer took my uncle life
Was like time was a paused
After that I lost a grip in my life
Kinda a downfall
Pick the pen up mask my pain with lyric down pour
Walkin narrow road with no solid ground to lounge on
Back in depressions arms
This bitch loves me to be around more

(Jodi DaReal)
Chillin' in the dark room twilight
I really don't believe in my life
But I keep goin'
I keep goin'
And i go no way
Fghting to recover this
Simple things i can't regret
I keep goin'
I keep goin'

(Squeegie O)
So now
Im tryna think about
What to do
Its like I'm lost
But
Im not lost
I need answers, and i need to get my mind right
On some real shit

(Beep)
(Pops): Dean, how you doin'?
I'm at St.George, ill call you back
God bless you very much my seed
(Beep)