Cups of Coffee

On this cold winter morning
It hit me without warning
I was staring out the window
Drinking my fourth cup of coffee

My hands started shaking, I know
You'll say I'm over caffeinated, so
The first time that I noticed that
The world gets complicated

I'm just trying to find out who I am
I know you'll never understand

As I struggle through my day
I collect the mess I've made
I put everything into boxes and
Hide all my mistakes

If I bury all the evidence
Internalize the consequences
I'll have my fifth cup of coffee
And hide in this apartment

I'm just trying to find out who I am
I know you'll never understand

This isn't how I'm supposed to feel
I've got my hands glued to the steering wheel
But I don't know where I'm going
This isn't where I'm supposed to be
I got a couple hundred miles to cincinnati
And I still don't know where I'm going

On this cold winter morning
It hit me without warning
I was staring out the window
Drinking my tenth cup of coffee