Crushed

I crush a pill on the table
I knew I was never capable
When we get too close

Just afraid of what really hurts

I've been in my head more or less
Of course I was gonna write song
What the fuck did you expect

(And sometimes I bled
I can't help the nightmares inside my head)

Are you really doing it by one call and a text
When you said you want it all I felt like blessed
And like for once things were making sense
I'd take the jump for you instead

I'd put the gun up to my head
If it meant your internal happiness