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[Verse 1: Conflicted Prodigy]
Death. 5 letters 4 me
3 minutes left until you see
That it's 2 late now, already done
I know I can't be the only 1
Struggling, inside my mind
Wishing that I could hit rewind
To see when I started going insane
Tired of hurting, can't take this pain

But it's alright, that's what I'll say
Don't worry about me I'll be okay
Time is almost up, but you wouldn't know
Because the thoughts I'm thinking I never show
Internally, I'm constantly bleeding
Eternally, reassurance I'm needing
Are you hearing me, I'm constantly pleading
I wish it would stop, but my heart keeps beating

Scary. 5 letters you feel
This is 4 all the times you sealed the deal
3 more marks up on your wrists
Covered them up and sealed your lips
2 scared about what the rest would say
If 1 day they found out you weren't okay
So Continue building your wall of lies
So Nobody can see the pain in your eyes
Darkness shrouds you putting out your light
And without your light, there's no will to fight
Start thinking nothing will be alright
Then attempt to end your life tonight

Terrified, petrified, and slightly confused
Constantly paranoid of being used
You're just a bomb ticking, with a short fuse
Decided to end it all with a noose
Because the truth is you feel like a nuisance
Which is more excuses for your self-abusings
The abusings have made you lose translucence
And a part of you knows you don't have to do this
But you continue to keep going through with this
Can't think straight sober so you down a fifth
Then wonder if happiness is just a myth
And realize you'll never know what the truth is

Doubt 5 letters you know well
Knew about it b4 you knew how to spell
Back in church they mentioned the holy 3
But you were 2 young to know what to believe
How is it possible to kill your 1 true son
Just so he could be forgotten by everyone
I think it's time for some questioning
I've got questions that need answering

If you're up there why do I feel this way
If you're so holy why isn't everything okay
If you're so perfect why can't you take away
This pain and make everyday a holiday
If you're in control why don't we all obey
Why does my mind seem to still go astray
Why am I supposed to follow with no delay
Do you even hear me when I get down to pray?

Alone. 5 letters 4 us
Cause 3's a crowd and 2's too much
The 1 thing we want is to be alone
But we don't really want to be on our own
It's safer, maybe for the best
If we're all alone, no one can protest
Against the thoughts of our own deaths
The only way we'll ever get some rest

We're all tired, of feeling like this
This CO1 gives me feelings of bliss
I breathe it in and drift off to sleep
I can't stop now, I'm in too deep...
And if I shall die before I wake
I pray the Lord this wasn't a mistake
And if you hear me give me a sign
So I'll know everything will be alright

Death. 5 letters I once said
4warned in 3 minutes I'd be dead
It's 2 late for me, I'm already gone
But I knew I couldn't be the only 1
Listen to this and comeback to life
No more self-harm put down that knife
I know those thoughts you contemplate
So I gotta bring you back before it's too late
Nobody's okay, most keep pretending
Because the countdown is never ending
And the clock inside is always ticking
When you break down just get to fixing
I know it might seem scary at first
And I know you doubt your own self-worth
But you're not alone I promise you
Because you've got me and I've got you

I love you. 3 words you gotta say
2 keep another from feeling this way
1 sentence could change their day
Make them believe they'll be okay
Take a chance, be someone's hero
Stop their clock from reaching 0