Control

[Verse 1]
The stars align until the clouds begin to sink
Into the void of my depression, no better than what you think
We believe in the impossible of things we never see
Until the answers make it obvious to seek what you don't need
I'm drifting all alone into the space that's labeled "dangerous"
I'm sailing to the moon in hopes they'll finally find a place for us
And you don't run away, you stand and face it 'til it's jaded love
If I don't seek redemption, there's no way that I can make it up
Way above everything below that I could mention
I tried to hear you out, but it ain't all about intentions
The things you said were heavy
I'm affected by the weight of every sentence
And I wanted you to love me like you didn't
I don't need those hurtful thoughts every time I try to speak
I don't need a list of right & wrongs that tell me who to be
I don't need your "absolutes" and "actually", just space to breathe
And all the choices made it obvious to seek what I don't need

[Hook]
Don't you know that
You don't control me
You don't control me
Anymore
Don't you know that
You don't control me
You don't control me
Anymore

[Verse 2]
Yeah, you don't control the way I think, the things I do
And since you wanted me to live under your thumb, it's time to move
I know your love did not exclusively belong to me, that's true
But I was down to call you mine, to make you wife, and say "I Do"
But I don't understand- the things that you would tell me felt ironic
I knew these open conversations kept you from your promise
I knew these broken situations made you feel forgotten
To me, you were my everything- to you, I'm just a product
Of rejection, depression, anxiety, manipulation
They say that disagreements often lead to disassociation
What do I say when everything becomes so complicated?
All the things I chased to find contentment feels so dumb & wasted
I used to stand the heat for days looking for the cold
I used to watch the rain for hours looking out for now
I used to give you all my power, you were in control
But baby girl, those days are over, I hope you know

[Hook]
Don't you know that
You don't control me
You don't control me
Anymore
Don't you know that
You don't control me
You don't control me
Anymore