Conflicted

[Genesis Verse]
First time I felt betrayed I think I had it wrong
I lost my mom too young, felt like I ain't belong
Everybody would tell stories, I'd just nod along
Not knowing later on I'd bleed it on a song
I remember being pissed like who the fuck is this?
I became a different person with someone to miss
Everything contradicted, every sense had drifted
Every thought was twisted and every fight I picked it
Took a while to admit it cause I just dismissed it
I ain't wanna be a victim so I just resisted
But it wasn't till the day that my ex would go and say
"I think that you need help letting go of what can't stay"
That it hit me
Because of all the pain through the years placing blame
I had venom coursing through every last one of my veins
And I'll lose everything I've gained if I don't find a way to let it drain

Hook 2X
Stay down, shots rang from the barrel of a gun
Stay down, kill our people man, they killin' everyone
Stay down, devil's work is never done
Where the limit is the sun, pray it up to god, if not you better run

[DT Verse]
As a 12 year-old kid I was suicidal
I was only 13 when I perused a bible
Thought it was some bullshit, there was no denial
I could end it right now but I choose survival
Vices, got me locked in a vice grip
I'm nine-tenths away from leaving you lifeless
I'm ISIS, I take your head off and bite this
I'm violent, man why the fuck am I like this?
From useless tyrants I should glue my eyelids
The youth is mindless
I'll choose an island and move inside it
The rules are viking, they're rude and hiking
They're shootin' my kids
Prayin' for a day that'll never come
Man they shootin' up our people and they better run
All these people that I love? You done severed'em
And if you call yourself a god we need a better one

Hook 2X
Stay down, shots rang from the barrel of a gun
Stay down, kill our people man, they killin' everyone
Stay down, devil's work is never done
Where the limit is the sun, pray it up to god, if not you better run