Cognitive Dissonance

These hands have felt too much, my mouth has said enough
Disgusting, spineless, abusive, toxic nothing but a hypocrite
Filthy urges and scumbag tendencies
Hurting other people not to gain or displease
Only think about myself
Shouldn’t have folded the hand I was dealt
Regret people I got close with, girls that I slept with
Decisions were my mistakes and it makes me fucking nauseous
Cut ties with old friends, cauterising loose ends
Feeling the relief of this post dead weight cleanse

For too long I’ve let guilt consume me
Time to end this overwhelming feeling
Won’t be defined by idiosyncrasy
Here’s my final chance to be revealing

These hands have felt too much, my mouth has said enough
These hands have felt too much, my mouth has said enough
These hands have felt too much, my mouth has said enough
These hands have felt too much, my mouth has said enough

I am tainted, my fate has been cemented in the pavement
I look down and see my lifeless body on the ground
Weighing up my options, overriding the precautions
Consequences out the window, relieve this sense of vertigo

Pick at the skin between my nails
Hope to god my body fails
These hands have felt too much, my mouth has said enough
These hands have felt too much, my mouth has said enough

My strength was just an illusion
I am nothing but a normal human
My strength was just an illusion
I am nothing but a normal human