nobigdyl. has spoke about why he considers “close” as his most honest song. In fact, throughout it he feels that he doesn’t deserve the love of his wife (in the first verse), and that he doesn’t deserve the love of Christ (in the second verse), and he deals with rather dark thoughts about himself: s...
[Verse 1: nobigdyl.]
We were best friends up until I had to give confessions (Give confessions)
With the stress, now we are gonna need some intercession
Feel the pain arise, how could I lie, night after night, by your side
All the while keepin' lies down inside
Put my vows to the side, now your eyes close tight in the night Valentine's
Just another day feelin' out of place and I really hate me (I really hate me)
When I see your face, then I contemplate: "What if I erase me?"
Better that than facin' the truth
Someone better waitin' for you
Someone who is faithful to you
Grab me by my face with your wedding band up against my jaw (Up against my jaw)
Said, "I'm here to stay, that's for every win, that's for every loss (That's for every loss)
I can never estimate the price you pay to forgive my faults"
I said, "Baby girl, you don't have to take this"
She said, "Boy, you gon' have to face it"
[Chorus: Adam Friedman]
I wanna hold you close
I'll never let you go
Come, let me in your arms
I wanna hold you close
[Verse 2: nobigdyl.]
How do people get like me
You ain't never seen a wreck like me
You ain't ever owed a debt like me
How you gonna save a wretch like me?
I might be turn a bottle to a hospital
Saw somebody carve a canyon
In their skin, saw the Rio Grande
Turn red, they might need a bandage
Need a friend, I feel so abandoned (So abandoned)
But I know, I deserve it
I don't even wanna fight the verdict
I don't need some kinda words I have heard
Everyone I know
I'm the worst and flyin' birds really kinda covet
Scared to go 'cause I don't know what's next
When I die, will I fly, will I love it?
Will I pay the price for rejectin' everything You gave?
How much does Your grace cost when I face off with my past
And I lose the game?
Build a sand castle outta fear and
Now I pray that You'll send a wave
Will You renovate? Will You terminate?
If You're even there, You just probably hate me
Grab me by my hand and I felt the Spirit movin' my heart
Said I'll live again and that all I did is nailed to the cross
I could never estimate the price you pay to forgive my fault then
I said, "Lord, I could not repay this"
He said, "Boy, you gon' have to face it"
[Chorus: Adam Friedman, nobigdyl.]
I wanna hold you close (Wanna hold you close)
I'll never let you go (Never let you go)
Come, let me in your arms (Let me in your arms, yeah)
I wanna hold you close
I wanna hold you close
I'll never let you go
Come, let me in your arms
I wanna hold you close
close was written by Adam Friedman & nobigdyl..
close was produced by Adam Friedman.
nobigdyl. released close on Fri Jun 15 2018.
“close” is the most intimate thing i’ve ever written. it is made up of the darkest moments of my life, and the light that forced that darkness out of me. it is fear + grace. failure + redemption. it is the key to understanding SOLAR & ties everything you’ll see & hear from the album together...
Most hip-hop songs are in 4/4 time, but this song has a 6/8 time signature.
I completely opened my whole life for everybody. I feel like we have scars to the benefit of other people because they don’t get the same wounds of us. We can walk them through that in a way that they don’t have to go through that. That song by far is the one that people have hit me up about. “Man,...