Class Clown

I hope this doesn't freak you out
But I thought I'd just say, "Hey"
I know we've barely spoken out of school
But it seems I've grown attached to the thought of you
And to tell the truth, I use humor to mask my insecurities
Oh I try to be funny, quite a bit
And look at me now
Stumbling over a joke you've probably heard before
'Cause all I'm paying attention to is the way you look at him
So I cross the room and clear my head
Wishing it was me instead
Who always keeps you interested
I close my eyes and count to 10
I need to stop overthinking it

I might not be everything you asked for
I know that
And you might take a look at me and say
"Is this the kind of guy who chases after me these days?
Guys who use humor to mask their insecurities?"

Well, I try to be funny, quite a lot
And look at me now
Stumbling over myself at a party I wasn't invited to
Drink in my hand, trying to find a spot to sleep
And I see you, you with him
I start to drift off, nothing left but me and my thoughts
Does she even know that I exist?
I close my eyes and count to 10
I need to stop overthinking this

I would ask you to take me as I am
But it won't do any good
Because what you see isn't who I am
I would show you if I could
I change the way I speak
And how I act and what I say
'Cause I'm afraid that you won't like me any other way
And I use humor to mask my insecurities
So, I try to be funny all the time
And look at me now
Stumbling over the words of a song I wrote for you
A song you'll probably never hear
Because I'm too ashamed and too afraid
What kind of person writes a song
About a girl he's barely spoken to?
I close my eyes and count to 10
I need to stop overthinking you