[Spoken]
Yeah, yeah
Yeah-yeah
Yeah
[Verse 1]
I’ve been sitting on some things for the past whole year and
Last summer ain’t sit right, grow with some fears and
Lost off the map like a deer in the headlights
Docked in Chicago and I flopped off the deep end
Sitting my room in a lazy mood
Know I’m damn well capable
But I caped some problems, tried to stray beyond ‘em
But I faced ‘em ready to get paid in full
And I see ‘em coming up and coming straight from the basement
I’m solidifying me like writing names in the pavement
Ain’t on it if I limit me to basic
Going by case with it
Got a taste of it and I waste the shit
Motivation come and go and I’m racing
At the pull, amazing
Gun out with the trigger gonna pull it go “bang”
Gonna go Usain with it
But I’m too impatient, that’s my flaw
Wanna drop this shit last year, my god
Shit change in an instant
‘Fore you know it all the friends grow apart
But that’s life
Had dreams all the homies lived in a cul de sac
At the end of the street
But we fenced up our dreams
When the shit went south and it’s like enemies
But it’s not, that’s okay
Shit change in a blink
Not just a phase again
Got me asking “what’s my age again?”
There’s a time every fighter puts a stop to it
Doesn’t hop in the cage again
Sometimes you gotta walk away
Leave shit behind
Might not get answers on the dime
Maybe you won’t, and maybe you go
And meet new people
Eh, that’s not what this about
[Verse 2]
Only so much that I can say in a rhyme
Avoid repeating myself
Hold myself to a higher standard
Gotta be feeling it well
Well if I don’t then I’m screwed and I lost that feeling
Sitting on the couch, question what’s my meaning
What’s my goal, yo, what’s my passion?
What’s my name, yo? Why’m I rapping?
Do they know me? Do I care?
I care too much, and I pack my bags and I leave this shit
I leave those dreams and I give into the looming anxiety
But I know deep down if I do, then I fail
An empire’s gone that’s up the hill
Where the peak that’s happiness
And I know that to me, I can’t give in
I got 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 new facets
Get to know me, know why I’m rapping
I’d give a toast but I’m not done yet
Not doing the most, no, I’m not fronting
You give me a chance, know I’ll be all in
It’s cool if you’re with me, cool you’re not, and
[Outro]
I’m finding myself and what’s my calling
You can watch me climb but won’t catch me falling
I’m finding myself and what’s my calling
You can watch me climb but won’t catch me falling
Chris Jewson was written by Chris Jewson.
Chris Jewson was produced by Chris Jewson & Hunter.
Catharsis released Chris Jewson on Sun Jul 12 2020.