Cherry On Top

[Verse 1]
I'm done changing
I'm done saying it's bad when it's not that bad
I'm done taking
Drastic doses of drama and feeling sad

I can't keep delusions in an old shoe box
I can't keep the things I love in drawers of socks

I'm done hating myself and wishing I could be someone else

[Chorus]
'Cause I don't wanna say goodbye with a lie on my lips
I don't wanna live and die like this
Like a shadow, like a nuisance, like I'm build from blood and bruises
When I'm not
There's a lot more to it then

[Chorus]
All my childhood friends
Are dead or married or having kids
And all my memories
Kept on film only highlight the worst of it

Yeah I can't think of somеthing with a cherry on top
And I can't find the good when it was purposеly lost

But I'm done thinking on the dark side of every damn thing in my life

[Chorus]
'Cause I don't wanna say goodbye with a lie on my lips
I don't wanna live and die like this
Like a shadow, like a nuisance, like I'm just fucking useless
When I'm not
There's a lot more to it then

[Verse 3]
Blaming people
Blaming myself on things that I can't control
It's just empty
Feeling empty, can't stomach the vulnerable

Oh I keep growing up inside a desperate sound and
I just want to be a little happier now