Check Request Denied

I see you again, a painful reminder
A casualty of acquaintance
Looking for the first fuck-up
God knows you must be tired

The cross you bear, your favorite shelter
The forget me not of that loyal temper
Smell you later, friends
Who's gonna pay for this shit? Well, that depends

You're sad
That you had to miss it
But you're glad
You weren't involved

When a shock to the ribs or a kick to the head
Didn't open up your lying eyes
Despite the anger and dissent
With our regrets, your check request's denied

I stared at heaven through the gates of hell
Liked the weather, couldn't stand the smell
And still I spit out razors from my bitter eyes

Tall as a banana fence, blasting cigarettes
Dull as any hammer gets, twice the mess
Don't trust me or my temper
When I get drunk, I lie

Some dummies get the affluence to match their madness
Started off at a size eleven, moved to cohasset
Built a doll house for a month
And cried, they're splitting at the seams, so why am I?

I stared at heaven through the gates of hell
Liked the weather, couldn't stand the smell
And still I spit out razors from my bitter eyes

It's the blood from the rock that you can't get enough
That razor's love for bitter me
Who's botching up the harmony?
With a smile that said "I'm guilty," I stood up

Left heaven at the gates of hell
And I am never going back