Chasing Ghosts

[Verse 1: Flowz Dilione]
I can't do it bruv, I'm tired and stressed
My mind is a mess, I'm sick of living life in my head
Anxiety is like a knife in my chest, it makes it hard to breathe
My heart is weak and it's dying for strength
I've seen shit that I still fuckin dream about
I need to blow my brains on the wall to let my demons out
I used to have a family but I don't see them now
That's why I'm so closed off and hardly ever leave the house

[Verse 2: Dwizofoz]
Look me in the eyes bruv, listen to my words
I know this shits been hurtin since the minute of your birth
And you're feeling like where you belong, isn't here on earth
But you got too much to live for and this decision is the worst
Plus your little brothers need you
River's just a verse, without you Shaff will wind up in prison or a hearse
I know you wanna live to see your missus giving birth
And be there for your child, and be the dad that you deserve (you deserve)

[Verse 3: Flowz Dilione]
But in my head, they'll be better when I'm gone
When I'm dead I hope they don't remember me at all
When they send me to the morgue, I don't wanna be identified
I don't wanna be seen by any family or friends of mine
Especially Riv, the best friend I ever had
I've already broken his heart and I can't handle that
I'm too weak to carry the weight like cheap anvil straps
Everything I've ever had is gone and I can't get it back

[Verse 4: Dwizofoz]
Well if for no one else, do it for you bruv
Do it to say fuck your past, do it for your future
You're stronger than you know bruv, I'm telling you
I'll be by your side every step, if you want I'll go to hell with you
And pull you out the other side breathin
I know that's not you wanting to die bro, that's just the pipe speakin
Ice weakens the will to fight demons, I've seen it
I won't let it happen to you, You know what I'm sayin is true

[Verse 5: Flowz Dilione]
If not for me I should prevail for them
Cause they have everything to lose and I'm just waitin for death
I say I'm strong and loyal, if I was I'd stay to the end
And hold my whole fam down till the die that I'm dead
I'd be the king that my queen deserves
A brother to Shaff, Sittin next to Riv laughing with my mum and my dad
But I'm not so I'm sittin drunk mumbling raps
Depressed confessions sippin liquor with a gun in my lap

[Verse 6: Dwizofoz]
See that's the you I know, the you I know you wanna be
I know you at war with yourself and all you want is peace
But brother please just give me the piece, it's not your time to go
I'm talkin to Taylor now I'm not talkin to Flowz
I just wish I would've told you this sooner
We can't change the past but you could've had a whole different future
And I just can't let go, listening to the echoes of your voice
While I'm sitting here talkin to your headstone

[Outro]
We are gathered here today, not to mourn but to celebrate the life of Taylor "Flowz" Rough, may he rest with strength and loyalty