Cascadia subduction zone

If you love me, does that just mean you don't know me?
You don't know what i was like when i was young
You didn't ever have to listen to me shouting
Any pointlessly cruel things at those you love

And not a single human being who once loved me
Walked away from me without some kind of wound
I left scars that, to this day, still mar the hearts of
All the very best people i ever knew

And the dark? well, it gets darker
And our hearts? well, they get harder
So what other options are there, baby?
What else is left to say?

While i grate and i grasp and i fall and i lapse
And i breathe and i stop and i bleed and i rot
And the ground starts to shake as the world begins breaking
In two

And i'm like "good, i wanted it to"

If you love me, does that just mean that we're waiting
For the bell to ring, and signal we should fight?
Is that why everyone who's standing in my corner
Keeps saying everything will change after tonight?

When you first found me sitting on a pile of bodies
You thought of enemies of yours that i could kill
As if those bodies don't belong to those i loved once
Who disappointed me, just as you surely will

Now it's my blood in the water
And i don't wanna be a martyr
So what other options are there, baby?
What else is left to say?

While i grate and i grasp and i fall and i lapse
And i breathe and i stop and i bleed and i rot
And the ground starts to shake as the world begins breaking
In two

And i'm like "good, i wanted it to"

Well, it feels like it's been centuries since we fought for survival
Now we feast upon our friends and toast their memory with rivals
Our songs all sound identical, i can't recall the titles
But i'm sure they're all on apple music, spotify, and tidal

And the ancient survivors of the nineties crystal crisis
Look up at us with big fat tears welling up in their eyelids
They said they really thought heroin had left them mostly lifeless
But they'd never seen such lifelessness as that which lives inside us

(which is true)

And i'm like "good, i wanted it to"