Bring the Pain

In a time of war I seek peace
I am driven by the wisdom of defeat, been through it all
Seen it all so I spit it over beats
This my mental therapy kid, this how I release
Words that I speak come deep from beneath
Spew into the world and teach each person reached
I do not preach, plant the seed at least
So that one day when I'm dead and gone y'all can find relief
I been through the grief, questioned my beliefs
Prayed and played the game but found nothing but deceit
What did I achieve? Cause it ain't clear to me
From the outside lookin' in tell me how do you perceive
Who I seem to be, I don't let it lead
To negative perception of myself, I salt the leech
Cause if I don't it feeds on my soul til it bleeds
Then I'm cold slowly dying from disease

Too stubborn to do nothin' and feel free
If I ain't writin' down my thoughts on this loose leaf
Then I ain't happy in this world that abused me
I just gotta get it out now to be the new me
If you really knew me, know that you would lose me
Know that I would push you away, you can't choose me
You can never move me, every night I lose sleep
Reliving the trauma of my past like a movie
One day imma live my some day
Never thought I would get this far away from sunday
I don't need a god here to tell me how to run things
Imma do it my way, grind and hit the highway
Run it through, bring it live in front of you
Show you what I'm gonna do, when the beat hit it gon' pummel you
Nothin' new, maybe now you'll open up ya brain
I been shinin' with the rhymin' now its time to bring the pain
Unashamed