Breathing Is the Hardest Part

Another Winter's come and gone again
And all I've learned is to pretend
I sang along and played the part
But I guess I'm fine here on my own
The pills called so I answered the bottle
To drown out the taste of my sorrow
My pulse in the hands of tomorrow
This is where you wanted me
Come watch me separate my skin
To scatter panic from within
If only breathing kept me calm
I might finally find a way to
Lay my head under six feet of false hope
Or find solutions to my confusion
Counting sheep once again
Hiding from the wolf under my bed
The monsters in my head tell me
Giving up comes easy
Breathing is the hardest part
I'll never close my eyes again
I'm breaking down to the same old song again
The chorus never seems to end
I can't relate to moving on
So I guess I'm stuck here on repeat
I'm finding ways to pass the time
In gambling with peace of mind
Placing bets on a new prescription
Sign my blood on the dotted line
So they tell me it gets better
But I can't hold on forever
And I'm tired of this counting
Just to keep my heart from pounding
It seems everything I need
It's just always out of reach
And it's eating all of me
And I'm through with therapy
Counting sheep once again
Hiding from the wolf under my bed
The monsters in my head tell me
Giving up comes easy
Breathing is the hardest part
I'll never close my eyes again
Breathe
Resistance is useless
The air I breathe is poison
Resistance is useless
The air I breathe
Can you understand
That this is how my life will end
With every butterfly I have inside
Eating me alive
Counting sheep once again
Hiding from the wolf under my bed
The monsters in my head tell me
Giving up comes easy (I can't)
Breathing is the hardest part (Breathe still, it's no use)
I'll never close my eyes again
I've gotten over (Breathe in breathe out)
Thoughts of getting better (It's not working)
I've had enough now (Breathe in breathe out)
Let the waves eat me (Breathe in breathe out it's not working)
Inside (Breathe in breathe out it's not working)
Breathe in breathe out
I'll never close my eyes again