Blind Faith

[Verse 1: Johniepee]
Dear God, I've never done this before
But I thought I'd reach out, man, I need your support
I feel like an idiot, just me and these walls
But there's meaning behind the scenery and I'm fiending for more
I don't complain much, but life dealt me a shit hand
Tried to pull me under faster than quicksand
I've been resilient, struggling, I really am
Really I'm just lookin' for a way to be the bigger man
Lone wolf since five or six, shit
I've had to be a survivalist
And now I'm twenty-four and had my childhood missed
And I guess I'm wishing back to a time before this shit
Before all the fights and the sleepless nights
Before mum relapsed about a thousand times
Before she was dignosed by a man in a white coat
Before the scars were how we're now defined
I've been searching for the meanin' through all of this
I thought you might grant me an audience
I wanna believe in you, but it's hard as shit
'Cause I can't see you, but you might exist
Amen

[Chorus: Elodie (Johniepee)]
Knock, knock, who's there? I can't find you (I can't find you)
I've been searchin' every day (I've been searchin')
I'm so sick of all the hurtin'
Please, oh, please just show your face
Why are all the lights so blindin'? (so blindin')
They just seem to block my way (to block my way)
I'll keep workin' and keep tryin'
Through the night I got my faith

[Verse 2: Johniepee]
Dear son, I thought I'd write back
I made you in nine-two, and you're still on that right track
Proud of you and how you handle my tests
And every time you come through the other side, I'm really impressed
Apologies if I seem harsh
If every task I sent left your heartstrings scarred
But did you stop to think when life seems hard
That I'm moulding you to be stronger than you think you are?
I got all your prayers, didn't miss your call once
I'm hearing every cry of my every daughter and son
I can count every hair on your head and tear that you've cried
I know every single fear that you're holdin' inside
I know your mum's unwell and I let that pass
But without her bein' her, you wouldn't of grown this fast
Everything has purpose, one day you will see
That I've loved you since I made you unconditionally, G

[Chorus: Elodie (Johniepee)]
Knock, knock, who's there? I can't find you (I can't find you)
I've been searchin' every day (I've been searchin')
I'm so sick of all the hurtin'
Please, oh, please just show your face
Why are all the lights so blindin'? (so blindin')
They just seem to block my way (to block my way)
I'll keep workin' and keep tryin'
Through the night I got my faith

[Verse 3: Johniepee]
Yeah
Hey, it's me again, talking to the walls
Waiting for your reply, but getting none at all
I wanna know you're real, believe it in my heart
But it's hard to believe in light when you're sleepin' in the dark
I've been diggin' through your book like an archive
Been lookin' to the stars in the night sky
I wonder why I feel connected like the Wi-Fi
And where this all fits, sitting on your timeline
And is it coming to the end? 'Cause the world's burning
Hard to stay above the surface in this dirt furnace
What's the purpose of speaking life into something you created
If you don't help 'em out when they're all hurting?
But all your revelations happen every day
Could be more than chance? Anyways, I thought I'd pray
It's like I'm findin' faith facing the fire
I just pray you hear my cries and I'm not wasting my time
John

[Chorus: Elodie (Johniepee)]
Knock, knock, who's there? I can't find you (I can't find you)
I've been searchin' every day (I've been searchin')
I'm so sick of all the hurtin'
Please, oh, please just show your face
Why are all the lights so blindin'? (so blindin')
They just seem to block my way (to block my way)
I'll keep workin' and keep tryin'
Through the night I got my faith

[Verse 4: Johniepee]
Dear son, I'm sorry Earth's stuck in this state
But what did you expect? Greed's running your place
I gave everyone a chance when I started your race
But worshippin' the money and the mirror, what a mistake
In the garden I made, it started with snakes
And that snake told you all to just lie to my face
Thought I'd create a paradise, an incredible place
But now it's lookin' like a wasteland starting to break
I love you more than anything, but everyone hates
It's hard, when your own children want your head on a stake
It's hard, you've never seen me, but I'm wantin' your faith
You'll never understand my ways, but I just wanted to say
All the loved ones you miss are here safe with me (safe with me)
And if I posted these letters, would you have faith in me? (faith in me)
I've given you countless signs, now it's up to you
Sincerely your father, and I'll see you soon

[Outro: Elodie]
Yeah
Woah
Hey-yeah
Woah-wo-o-oah-oah