Birthday Parties

What's it gonna be like when I leave you
How's it gonna feel when I'm not there
Oh that's one more joke I know
You haven't noticed me in years

Sick to my stomach
Pale in the face
Everyone's saying it's not a race
But I'm done holding my breath
And clenching my teeth
Holding my breath
And clenching my teeth

I knock down the walls
You build 'em back up
You don't use nails
Just blood and guts
I swallow my pride
I shadow myself
Only got one life
And I'm walking on eggshells

Planning birthday parties
For someone else
I can't try anymore
And it hurts like hell

I'm at the edge
I'm at the cease
Stare the darkness down
No, it won't stop me
I'm done holding my breath
And clenching my teeth
It's not what I want
But you don't want me

I knock down the walls
You build 'em back up
You don't use nails
Just blood and guts
I swallow my pride
I shadow myself
Only got one life
And I'm walking on eggshells

Planning birthday parties
For someone else
I can't try anymore
And it hurts like hell

I guess loving me
Ain't what it's cracked up to be

I knock down the walls
You build 'em back up
You don't use nails
Just blood and guts
I swallow my pride
I shadow myself
Only got one life
And I'm walking on eggshells

Planning birthday parties
For someone else
I can't try anymore
And it hurts like hell

I guess loving me
Ain't what it's cracked up to be

Birthday parties
Planning birthday parties
Birthday parties
Planning birthday parties