Better Life

I just turned 21 when I gave away my son
That's a pain I won't forget
To have him ripped right from my chest
In my heart
I knew it was the on;y thing to do
But he grew inside my womb
And his leaving was my tomb
Those were the cloudy days
I keep trying to outrace

I had to break the cycle
Didn't want to be the same
As my parents were before me
Well that's just how they were raised

I did the best I could
I did what I thought was right
I hope he'll forgive me
For wanting to give him a better life
Don't tell me how it is
Don't tell me how it was
Don't tell me you know how I feel
Don't tell me it's not love
Cause if it's not love
I don't know what is

Every single birthday
Oh I'd drink the day away
Trying to forget that he was ever made
I just wanna hold him
Take back all those years
He didn't call me mother
And I didn't wipe his tears

I did the best I could
I did what I thought was right
I hope he'll forgive me
For wanting to give him a better life
Don't tell me how it is
Don't tell me how it was
Don't tell me you know how I feel
Don't tell me it's not love
Cause if it's not love
I don't know what is

And I never went to town
Till all the swelling had gone down
My soul was wrecked
My arms were free
I tried to find him
He didn't want to find me

I did the best I could
I did what I thought was right
I hope he'll forgive me
For wanting to give him a better life
Don't tell me how it is
Don't tell me how it was
Don't tell me you know how I feel
Don't tell me it's not love

If it's not love
I don't know what is