Bill O’Neal

And I be feeling like the worst son
Told her I’m a Scorpio I seen her reaction she acting like I got the worst sun sign
Watching Daniel Kalluya and Judas on the TV screen
Look at Fred like damn he 21 that could’ve been me
And his Brain filled with lead, two bullets in his head
While his wife was in the bed, it was a baby in her belly
And Tamir was just a baby, why they kill these niggas
You a Bill ass nigga, that’s why ion feel these niggas, fasho
Killed the old me he stumbled back to the floor
He had braces, now he got a goatee and some more
Thank god my teeth stayed straight ‘cause i lost them retainers
And baby we graduated they steady tryna retain us
Built the easel up I write for the painters
Don’t get it twisted
I also pen for the niggas wrapping white tight in them packaged containers
Remember when the opps had threatened to stain us
Me and my sisters often struggled with different living arrangements
But I can’t say I seldom struggle now
Barely see my brothers now, I’m hiding under covers now ‘cause brothers undercover now
Tez hold me down like no other nigga
In and out of anxious mental states when Ken and Kay was fucking other niggas
Can’t believe my parents seams split, they seeing other niggas
It’s hard reaching for the sky when your hands on the ground
And this music how I cope, so don’t you tell me turn it down
I know when John and Justin on the court they never turn me down
FaceTime with granny she said I never let her down
Said you always hide your dimples through the hurting with the frowns
And Kincaid I’ll see you soon, my dude ascended to the clouds
I still feel pain by the pound ,it’s astounding nigga
I still feel pain by the pound ,it’s astounding nigga
It’s insane and wild how the fuck I’m still smiling nigga
But I can’t say I seldom struggle now, barely see my brothers now
I barely speak with mother now
I know it hurt cause I’m her only son, it’s not personal she understand I’m on the run from sum
Had to understand life not a track meet
Daddy wasn’t there at times, I swear he not a deadbeat
I got a heavy heart so imma need my art to carry me, prepare for me