Between

[Verse]
Too close to reality, but caught in these travesties
Every day feels black & gray, with lack of imagining
Looking at a distorted view of daily normality
I look fine, but my threshold's losing capacity
I find my sadness irrational, reasons to me are laughable
Losing effort in making my happy facade passable
Ain't been enjoying life, I'm too focused on what my actions do
Drowning in negative energy I hope I don't pass to you
Staring blankly at a screen while running from my insecurities
And the fact that it's my own introversion that's hurting me
Interaction with strangers never done, but it occurs to me
Overstepping those boundaries burned my veins to the third degree
I run, ashamed, thinking of what I could've said
I try to remember that there's brighter days ahead
So I'll be here, writing till I run out of things to say
And this rain clouding my vision fades away