Best Friends (Flatchested)

[Hook]
That's a heavy feeling in my throat
Who knew this would be so hard to let go?
That's a heavy feeling in my throat
Who knew this would be so hard to let go?

[Verse 1]
I fucked up my mind up early
In the 3rd grade, you know the man don't wake up early
My parents had a laptop, the wifi's next door
I remember roaming campus wondering what to plan for
Sad that 10 year old me knew about the camgirls
Typing messages at 11, erotic roleplay on my mom's phone
I knew it was a problem, I was just too young and irresponsible to solve them
Now it snowballed to something bigger
The monster I crеated consumed evеry single finger
At my worst, it's just once a day
And at the worst, it's four times the play, wait
Yeah, it's strange looking at someone and wondering how to fuck them
That's the main priority, secondary to lovers
How does genuine love feel?
I really do wonder, the dying fear

[Hook]
That's a heavy feeling in my throat
Who knew this would be so hard to let go?
That's a heavy feeling in my throat
Who knew this would be so hard to let go?

[Verse 2]
My brain's infected, I gotta cleanse it
I wondered why I like my women flatchested
I festered thoughts about men, the boys peaked my interest
I haven't been the same since I stopped playing defense
That's the weak sense that left it all to chance
I fantasized how he'd look without fucking pants
I felt real good with provocative dances
I would've felt awful if we left it at best friends
That's why I keep my distance
My perverted mind keeps me pared
Self-sabotage kept me going anywhere
Open up the tab again and go to the URL
The hotel videos, I can't tell anymore if I feel the same pleasure
The desperate measures just to feel human
I did belittle my emotions and now I'm getting tired of the lotion

[Hook]
That's a heavy feeling in my throat
Who knew this would be so hard to let go?
That's a heavy feeling in my throat
Who knew this would be so hard to let go?