Belladonna

Twenty seven miles out of Dallas
When the nightshade took my head
I was over, I was under, I was out of it
And the shakes were getting bad

When I told you I was killing the dream
Sleep took on a new meaning
Now I just lie awake
And I'm wondering what it means to me

There was blood in every headline
Every day a new atrocity
We had to get our big bellies full of red wine
Just to close those eyes a wink

And you would call but you could barely speak
So we’d just listen to each other breathe
You’d draw another breath
Never knowing what it means to me

Could almost swear I felt the air
Flow out of you and into me
How strange it is to feel anything

But now I’m eager to learn
And I don’t care if it's gonna hurt
I gotta be sure what it means to me

G-d put me on a train ride to Dallas
Cause that evil light keeps shining
Can you believe that folks out here are proud us?
Oh, you’ll believe in anything

Do you remember being seventeen
And always wondering what it takes to be seen?
Now I’m just wondering what it should mean to me

We would talk but we could hardly speak
We’d just find some choice lines to repeat
Each time I‘d feel less and less
Of what it means to me

I was scared
I overheard your prayer
To be this and nothing more
Than the nothingness
That you had once been before

But now I’m dying to learn
And I'll even wait my turn
To be sure what it means to be

Oh now I'm eager to learn
And I don't care if it's gonna hurt
I want to be sure what it means to be