Beautiful

[Verse 1]
In the spiralling mind, what do we dive in and find?
The deeper we fall depends on just how high that we climb
I guess we all built this wall here, one lie at a time
Went to great lengths for the longest to try and deny
Did you resolve your past yet? 'Cause I didn't mine
So between love and hate, just how wide is the line?
For me to bottle all this pain's just deciding on dying
That's the urgency I have when I'm writing a rhyme
Every fibеr inside of this fire of mine
Full of irе, a virus in such a violent time
Take the wrath and the pride, just divide it in sides
Feel the passion arise, as it arrives in his eyes
And I'm gone, back into this standing parade
Pull the pin out on this fucking hand grenade that I wave
Left abandoned, betrayed, I played a hand in this fate
Maybe that's the only thing I'll understand and create

[Hook]
They say I'm strange, and I am unusual
This all I got here, my life is a musical
I know you don't love me, you love what I do for you
They call it ugly, but I say it's beautiful
They say I'm strange, yeah, and I'm still unusual
I talk to myself here, I'm trynna get through to you
And nobody love you, just love what they do to you
So I just take everything that's brutal, and uh, I make it beautiful

[Verse 2]
When I'm in your speakers, half the rhyme I go jeepers-creepers
I play for keepers, smash phenomenal pieces
This is a star being born, astrological features
How do you mourn pathological creatures?
Riding the storm 'til five in the morn, colliding with scorns
Taking the bath with these leeches, jesus
It's such a passionate thesis, I leak on pieces of pages
There's no peace in this beast, I try to keep it in cages
But I can't contain it, blood and pain in a painting
What a strange entertaining sudden change when he's saying it
Cut a vein and then drained it, that's the level of payment
That I gave to the game, no other way to explain it, ain't it?
Something worth living for I found in my darkness
Will I be forgiven or go drown with the heartless?
I guess it still remains to be seen
If I can just go back to sleep and try changing the dream

[Hook]
They say I'm strange, and I am unusual
This all I got here, my life is a musical
I know you don't love me, you love what I do for you
They call it ugly, but I say it's beautiful
They say I'm strange, yeah, and I'm still unusual
I talk to myself here, I'm trynna get through to you
And nobody love you, just love what they do to you
So I just take everything that's brutal, and uh, I make it beautiful