Baseball cards

[Verse]
Your eyes glimmered different when the mirror dropped
The sparkle and the shine had now become lost
A glimmer that once before had always been soft
Had found its way to being a forgotten thought
Once confide in you the shit I'd never talk
Secrets just for you, though we were never caught
Yeah, I lost that for me but at what a cost?
A toxic relationship that we never bought
Battles after battles that we never fought
Saw it unfold, I just sat back and watched
I guess I do admit I did that shit a lot
I could've picked a battle and gave my thoughts
I see what I had got and now I count my loss
Seated at the table staring at your spot
Recollecting time while my stomach in knots
What happened to that kid and all the shit he was taught?

[Refrain]
I don't wanna' get older
No, no, no, no, no
I don't wanna' get older
No, no, no, no, no

[Verse]
I feel the past when it look over my shoulder
I see the kids, watch as they get older and older
Runnin' home from school, room lined with posters
Not a worry on the mind about what's growing closer
Spending all the time clickin' shit on controllers
Now he's worried about stayin' sober and closure
Not caught up in the past or even happy it's over
A realist approach that knows it only gets lower
Skeletons in our closest knowing I'm their owner
You got some in there too, don't pretend I'm a donor
We got out fair share of all that shit to get over
I'm just glad we took the time to look at shit slower
Pictured us together but there's too much exposure
You were walkin' to my tune but I'm not a composer
I've struggled for months just to keep my composure
What happened to that kids before the time that he know her?

[Refrain]
I don't wanna' get older
No, no, no, no, no
I don't wanna' get older
No, no, no, no, no

[Verse]
The things you used to say to keep me by your side
Missed that time of month and you told me it's mine
I told you for life, you were my ride or die
Lookin' back now I know I'm out of line
That feeling I got, still feel it in my spine
Memories took me back to a time I was nine
Baseball cards with different slots I'd assign
I crave that innocence, that's my fatal design
Faced with reality that I was strapped for time
Months down the line, maybe something like nine
Couldn't think straight, that was my fatal design
To learn she's fucking with me left me barely alive
You took so much from me, you always took it in strides
There's nothing left for me to even make a new life
And after all this you can't look in my eyes
What's the fucking point, I can't glimmer inside
You had me thinking I was gonna' have to provide
Couldn't think about my pride or the times that I cried
I was forced into a role and I would have to comply
Wanted to fuck my morals and runaway to just hide
What happened to that kid who would love a surprise?

[Outro]
Jayden, Jayden
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