Baggage

[Intro]
Yo, I can’t look back
Yo, I can’t go back
I won’t go back

[Verse 1]
Between masturbation and past relations
I was cheating before we even began dating
We planned a journey together but had our bags waiting
When the past weighs in, it pulls you back with the hand of Satan
Can’t blame him for all of it like the fault it is
Every consequence is a fallen system’s response to sin
God forgives but the actions last is a costly risk
When you’re playin’ with hearts in a way that results in kids
I was almost somebody’s baby daddy
What if I had to stay in Cali to raise a family?
My teenager could say “I’m ‘bout your age when you had me”
And they’d probably use it as an excuse to behave badly
I can’t imagine my life apart from my wife, of course
And I resolve that my pride is all worth my remorse
But striving toward the future means that my eyes are forward
Otherwise at times when the fire falls, I am salt

[Hook]
Yo, I can’t look back
Yo, I can’t go back
I won’t go back
But if I could then I would go back to change things
But I can’t go back
And now it really, really bugs me
I got all this baggage but you love me
I have a past of deceit but you trust me
The past remains what it is
We can’t change what we did
But He gives grace to forgive and that’s enough for me

[Verse 2]
Sometimes in moments when I feel lonely
I’m tempted by visions of my wife with a guy before me
Though she told me them other suckers got nothing on me
Hypocritically my shorter history tells me she owes me
And if jealousy gets the best of me, then I’d see
The rest of these heads had disrespected me though they didn’t know me
Especially tempest of being raped and molested
Be affecting me in ways unexpectedly leading me to adultery
Because porn is cheating the way I see it
When I’m deceived, I’m swayed to believing it makes us even
Ain’t a defense I make agreeing with faith and reason
The way I treat her will rank me chief an ungrateful heathen
She is not an idol for my obsession
Or an item for my possession denied her exes
My connection with her is deeper, as nice as sex is
Her life is pledged to me, that’s a privilege that I can rest in

[Hook]
Yo, I can’t look back
Yo, I can’t go back
I won’t go back
But if I could then I would go back to change things
But I can’t go back
And now it really, really bugs me
I got all this baggage but you love me
I have a past of deceit but you trust me
The past remains what it is
We can’t change what we did
But He gives grace to forgive and that’s enough for me

[Verse 3]
We’re not the same, the findings theory is kinda scary
Cats be asking why’d I get married like Tyler Perry
It’s a choice for which my commitment to God prepared me
Better yet, His commitment to me was modeled very clearly
We can bear with embarrassments and ensnaring sins
When we see the sin that Jesus would bear in comparison
We married sinners who married sinners, how fair is it
When we believe that God has declared us disciplinarian?
Our past doesn’t have to define us
When Jesus switches our path, he uses it to refine us
The crap behind us may follow us, even if it finds us
He gives us the grace to embrace and face in a way that’s righteous
Though when we were lawless, we weren’t as cautious
He’s sovereign in the bullets we dodge and the ones we’re caught with
And even though it may cost us, there is a profit
When all is considered loss for the Cross and all its accomplishment

[Hook]
Yo, I can’t look back
Yo, I can’t go back
I won’t go back
But if I could then I would go back to change things
But I can’t go back
And now it really, really bugs me
I got all this baggage but you love me
I have a past of deceit but you trust me
The past remains what it is
We can’t change what we did
But He gives grace to forgive and that’s enough for me