Backseat Driving

[Verse 1:]
These slight complications were easy to see
But the future and past didn't mean much to me
I was lookin' to grow older in a more simplistic way
But my fear held me back, got me to where I am today
You gotta watch out for any little problems
'Cause one of these days they're gonna come back to haunt you
And like a butterfly losing its wings
You're gonna fall to the ground, and it'll sting
But the friendships I made will help me dearly
And my hobbies that I lost will help me see clearly
I'm worried that they're gonna find out
But that was my fault when I finally came out
You know, sometimes I'm left to my own devices
And I'm forced to evaluate my sins and vices
Like a paper blowin' softly through the wind
It's never been easy to turn back again
But ya gotta watch out, anxiety is calling
Please dial another number, darling!
Well that was that my bad, I forgot to call it
Paranoid bitches gonna watch me when I'm ballin'

[Chorus:]
Ugh, well I'm your backseat driver!
Ugh, well I'm your backseat driver!
Ugh, well I'm your backseat driver!
Ugh, well I'm your backseat driver!

[Verse 2:]
You all think it's nothing that I'm worried 'bout you leavin'
Well you might think that now, but listen to my reasons
I'll never know what you're thinking
For all I know you are dissing
Well I got a bit more confidence than that
But what I have in confidence in mental strength I lack
I gotta feel the wind patterns
Do your words matter?
Something calls it back again
I want you to leave, you're not my friend!

[Chorus:]
Ugh, well I'm your backseat driver!
Ugh, well I'm your backseat driver!
Ugh, well I'm your backseat driver!
Ugh, well I'm your backseat driver!

[Bridge:]
And this is the simplest story I've ever told
I watched the plot pieces slowly unfold
But every passing day is a new cliffhanger
And this ain't no Netflix, and I ain't no binge-watcher
If everybody doesn't care as much as I do
Then it must mean I don't matter much to them
But if I simply prove to everyone I'm ready to
I'm sure they'll all accept me as their friend

[Outro:]
Presentations, invitations
Resignations, designations
Someone warned me way back when
You know you're gonna lose your friends
I hold on to every memory
Even the ones I said I'd forget
Everything I did is the world to me
Despite what makes me cringe
You know that you are my very best friends
My conscience is eating at what I pretend
Isn't happening, but I know that it is happening
Please, man, convince me this isn't happening
You have words that are quite persuasive
If only my fears weren't so pervasive