Back to Reality

Am I pretending to be someone who I don't want to be?
Feel like my heart is leaving me
And my soul

Wanna feel so real
But I'm faking it

Back to reality
Everyone's crowding me
Holding on tight for majesty
Feel like I'm insane, like I lost my brain
Back to reality
Everyone's crowding me
Holding on tight for majesty
Feel like I'm insane

It was awhile ago
Did I lose it in the snow?
Maybe that was a no
But was it all a show?

I'm so fake
Didn't wanna be this way
Someone save me from this life I hate
(You can't have my autograph)

I want to go back to reality
Feel like I'm living a fantasy

It's not lucid
Cuz I can't control my own destiny
Have to live to your
Expectations
Didn't wanna have no, invitations
Just wanted to be an imitation

Is that you at the door?
Or is it me faking everything?
Pretending to be someone who I don't want to be?

How can I trust myself
How can I trust you
Everyone feels like I do
No
I feel so fake
And that's' cuz I am
And the mirror is shamed

Back to reality
Everyone's crowding me
Holding on tight for majesty
Feel like I'm insane
Back to reality
Everyone's crowding me
Holding on tight for majesty
Feel like I lost my brain

It was awhile ago
Did I lose it in the snow?
Maybe that was a no
But was it all a show?

Can't form a script of the the top of my head
On what to say in any given situation
Why I can't I break free
It's just me
Why can't I just see
It's so ugly

Back to reality
Everyone's crowding me
Holding on tight for majesty
Feel like I'm insane
Back to reality
Everyone's crowding me
Holding on tight for majesty
Feel like I lost my brain

It was awhile ago
Did I lose it in the snow?
Maybe that was a no
But was it all a show?

I want to go back to reality
Feel like I'm living a fantasy

How have you not seen
Or has the light not yet, deemed