BabyDemons2//Thoughts

So i got these fucking thoughts for a while//
Since i was nine//
I just wanted to die//
Tried suicide//
A couple of times//
'cause i hate this life//
You can see it in my eyes//
They say i am still alive//
For some it's just a style//
To be suicidal//
But i ain't gonna lie//
Even if i'm not alright//
And i still can't sleep at night//
Even if they can't see the light//
Still don't need a sacrifice//
The demon by my side//
Want me to lose my mind//
Say i'll never win the fight//
But i just need to grind//
Fuck it's really hard to smile//
Visions so fucking bright//
They almost make me blind//
Now i can't see the sign//
They make me lose my appetite//
So now my skin's fucking tight//
Still can't take a bite//
I have fucking tried//
Now i'm fucking tired//
Feel like my brain is fried//
Just want to say goodbye//

So i got these fucking thoughts again//
Why isn't there anybody who wanna be my friend//
I only got the voices in my head//
Trynna hold 'em down with prescrips n meds//
I just wanna jump off this fuckin edge//
And get hanged by my fuckin neck//
Is this shit the life i'll get//
When will this shit fucking end?//
I wish i was fucking dead//